After a three month hiatus, happiness has once again returned in the form of music ♫
Free Tempo- Beautiful world
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Plans for the future
- Getting my own place with a friend when i hit 17 (hopefully)
- Traveling across the U.S. wit mi padre after highschool
- Watch an Aurora Borealis with my dad someday
- Go back to Korea
- Become a successful doctor and do missionary work (gives me an excuse to travel ><)
- Touch every continent before my dad does :P
- Influence and change someones life like you have changed mine
- Find the perfect wife like the one in "Fun with Dick and Jane"
- Meet my family
- Fulfill my vision
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Unfathomable pt.2
Ok, so now i will go deeper into my story about complications with God.
i HATE my church. i wanted to leave so bady but i can't. Like i said, God wants me to do something but i don't want to. I go to a church where i just waste my time because i cant understand the sermons. My pastor speaks broken english and its really hard to understand. But one day, i focused harder and i understood. And his sermons sucked! You just have to be there. The guy is new and all, to the country and to the idea of preaching, but how unfortunate it was that he chose OUR church. So now i want to leave. but i cant.
im done
Friend: You know.... before you started this church, we had a prayer night and i just prayed that you would start coming.
Me: what? we weren't even that close friends? why me? and why pray for me to come to church? after all, you were new to this church too.
Friend: And you know what? You showed up 2 weeks later and became a part of this Youth Group
What intrigued me the most was the fact that his prayers were answered, just to simply to get me to church. So about a week later i decide to switch churches, but a series of events took place that prevented me from going. It was a Friday and i was supposed to go home with a friend so that we can go to her church together. I called her twice after school so that i can get on her bus, but she didnt pick up. Then my phone randomly shuts off. Pissed, i just got on my bus and sat down. Once the buses started moving, my phone turned back on again. Turns out my friend had tried to call me right after my phone shut off. I was prevented from attending another church. The fact that God put me in Jusarang along with preventing me from attending another church makes me believe that God has a plan, but this road is gonna be one hell of a ride.
i HATE my church. i wanted to leave so bady but i can't. Like i said, God wants me to do something but i don't want to. I go to a church where i just waste my time because i cant understand the sermons. My pastor speaks broken english and its really hard to understand. But one day, i focused harder and i understood. And his sermons sucked! You just have to be there. The guy is new and all, to the country and to the idea of preaching, but how unfortunate it was that he chose OUR church. So now i want to leave. but i cant.
im done
Friend: You know.... before you started this church, we had a prayer night and i just prayed that you would start coming.
Me: what? we weren't even that close friends? why me? and why pray for me to come to church? after all, you were new to this church too.
Friend: And you know what? You showed up 2 weeks later and became a part of this Youth Group
What intrigued me the most was the fact that his prayers were answered, just to simply to get me to church. So about a week later i decide to switch churches, but a series of events took place that prevented me from going. It was a Friday and i was supposed to go home with a friend so that we can go to her church together. I called her twice after school so that i can get on her bus, but she didnt pick up. Then my phone randomly shuts off. Pissed, i just got on my bus and sat down. Once the buses started moving, my phone turned back on again. Turns out my friend had tried to call me right after my phone shut off. I was prevented from attending another church. The fact that God put me in Jusarang along with preventing me from attending another church makes me believe that God has a plan, but this road is gonna be one hell of a ride.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Unfathomable
Temptations are so unbearable. i wish i could just build a bunker to protect myself from sin.
Me: How do I differentiate between God telling me to do something instead of myself?
Friend: When you wake up every morning with the same consistent answer, and it contradicts from what you want, your own worldly desire.
Now i know God is telling me to do something, and this is possibly the worst feeling I've ever had. I want to have fun, i want to be the life of the party, i want to do my own things! But now i'm stuck between a life of sin or the path of righteousness. I wanna be who i really am, but i also wanna be a spitting image of God. The real me and God is like an oxymoron.
Me: How do I differentiate between God telling me to do something instead of myself?
Friend: When you wake up every morning with the same consistent answer, and it contradicts from what you want, your own worldly desire.
Now i know God is telling me to do something, and this is possibly the worst feeling I've ever had. I want to have fun, i want to be the life of the party, i want to do my own things! But now i'm stuck between a life of sin or the path of righteousness. I wanna be who i really am, but i also wanna be a spitting image of God. The real me and God is like an oxymoron.
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