Unfathomable

Temptations are so unbearable. i wish i could just build a bunker to protect myself from sin.

Me: How do I differentiate between God telling me to do something instead of myself?
Friend: When you wake up every morning with the same consistent answer, and it contradicts from what you want, your own worldly desire.

Now i know God is telling me to do something, and this is possibly the worst feeling I've ever had. I want to have fun, i want to be the life of the party, i want to do my own things! But now i'm stuck between a life of sin or the path of righteousness. I wanna be who i really am, but i also wanna be a spitting image of God. The real me and God is like an oxymoron.